kenapa?

dear diary,
aku tak tahu kenapa aku kejar dia, aku tak tahu kenapa aku kena terhegeh-hegeh lagi.,
aku tak tahu kenapa aku buta, aku tak tahu kenapa aku tak boleh pikir,
kenapa aku macam ni?
mana hilangnya budak asrama penuh, budak straight a's's budak 4 flat?
semua tu cuma pinjaman Allah je, aku je yang tak bersyukur, aku je yang bongkak,
aku je yang tak fikir, aku ikut nafsu je,
jangan sebab seorang lelaki, masa depan aku musnah,
memang tak patut aku cuba rapayt dengan mana2 laki ,
tak cukup lagi ke keluarga yang Allah dah bagi dekat kau sekarang?
tak cukup lagi ke masalah, yang kau tak cuba nak pikir dekat rumah tu?
tak cukup lagi ke, dengan keputusan periksa kau yang suam2 kuku je?
tak cukuplagi ke, ?

kenapa suka sesakkan pikiran dengan benda yang tak sepatutnya?

kaudatnag jauh2 nak belajar, mak bapak hantar suruh belajar, bukan buang masa, buang duit,
kalau nak kahwin sangat, baik x payah belajar jauh2.
kau pikir pasal diri kau je selama ni.
habis keluarga kau?

hmm, how selfish i am, being thinking, selfcentered,
aku tak sempat lagi jadi anak paling baik, nak berbakti dekat mak ayah pun kau tak tunaikan lagi,
kenapa sibuk nak jadi kekasih paling setia?

kenapa tak cuba nak setia, nak kukuhkan rasa sayang dekat DIA?

pemberi nyawa, pemberi rezeki, ?
kenapa kau tak pikir?

hmm,,
aaku penat dengan semua n, tolonglah, jangan pikir kenangan silam tu lagi,

bergerak ke hadapan, kenapa nak kena rasa lagi benda orang dah tingglkan?

beli ubat dengan selamat

dear diary,
sebagai pelajar farmasi, aku kena lah sebarkan benda yang aku tahu pasal ubat ni, firstly, laman web ini
http://portal.bpfk.gov.my/index.cfm

apa yang bagusnya laman web ni?
bukak dulu baru komen, haha, k bye

25 APRIL 2014

hmm, nothing happen, just that, go to class, relief that i manage to wake up with His izin, if not, i could laying on the bed, unconciously.

Jumaat, the cjief, the mulia among other days.

first class epidemiology, with prof Teh, she was Chinese and she is a Muslim, her chinese accent did not nampak la, when speaking in Malay languange, which I wonder why and how , haha

and then a question not, many questions actually,

 is she married? did she has a child? haha, i don't know why i am thinking of these, although i should think of sth related to the study actually, esp during the lecture, haha, maybe my mind was very tired of thinking, paying attention during the class.

then, we move on to the pharmaceutics class with dr noor hayati, wow, she was the first batch of Pharmacy uitm students. 

want to know what?, she was among the lecturers I admire because, she would explain all the things we didnt know, from a-z, and she will explain till things get cleared to us, no matter how many hours it takes,

hu, next, row. recipe of women

hmm, i know, this program was the only one existed in uitm puncak alam, i dont know how about other universities, but no matter what, i love this programme

what the benefit are, first, it help to improve my spiritual, the inside, which i am lacking.

one should seek guidance when he or she feel lost,

yes, i am lost actually, sometimes we might always think that we are on the right track, but we didnt realise that we actually are away from the track, hmm, that is dangerous.

why lost? hmm, because of a boy,

i am n=know regretting the past, which is useless, its too late, but still worth to take action now,what he did to me, not important, but the important part is how i cope with the problems, challenge .

hmm, next, a statement from the speaker, make me think of many times,

for those who are in love, cepat2 la kahwin, if not, broke up, putus lah, berpisahlah kerana Allah, kerana kalau awak nak cari jodoh yang baik, insyaAllah dimakbulkan, dan KALAU LELAKI TU SETIA, DIA AKAN CARI AWAK NANTI,

hmm, x payah tunggu nanti, dia dah cari yang lain pun, without i Am aware, its hurt to be dumped, but what is passed, is the past isnt it> hmm

ok, then, i hate to tell stories that make me sad, its not fun ok.

n after zuhur, we go to bank islam, completing for the mgt assignent. type og is, hmmm,

seems that the banker had to much to talk, in slow, well pattern, hmm, maybe he hasn't met ppl for years, so many issues, things, to talk, haha

16 APRIL 2014

dear diary,
ok,yesterday i got a shocking news revealed by myself, he was buying all the things needed for his business, then go to bank, then i called him many times, he didn't answer, and actually he was with sheela, kemaskan all the  things, the problem is that, why he choose that place? dekat dengan rumah dia?
hmm, and after all he did to me, why am i still bother about him? are crazy or what ? hmmm

semua ini hanya menyakitkan hati kau saja, dia tak sayang kau lagi, kenapa kau harus terhegeh minta kasih sayang lelaki tu? kau tak malu ke? kau tak sedar ke kau tak layak dengan dia? kau tahu tak?

kenapa aku ni tak faham2?

aizul zin

dear diary,
i just want to say, on this date, aizul mohd zin, norasheela yusuf yang ounya or, norasheela yusuf aizul zin yang punye? hmmm, aku tak tahu la nak cakap ape, aku ni,

pesanan untuk perempuan baru putus cinta

dear diary,
aku takde benda nak pos pasal benda ni, aku cuma nak mintak pndapat kowg apa aku perlu buat, hmm, seriouslyi am lost
dah lebih sebukan kot, entah la aku seorang je sibuk kejar bayang dia, tolong aku please

clashed

dear diary,
ok, things might being bored if you have been dumped by that guy. i also tired, sick of all this drama,
the question is, why he never be sincere to me., taht he had already found a new one, and had bored with me? why he isn't being fair to me?
why i must know this from that girl? not from yourself? huh?
why are you so coward to admit that you no longer love me? why?
why are you keeping and let me sad by my own way? huh? why?
why am i had to suffer like this because of you?
hmm, aku penatla,
kenapa lepas 2 tahun baru kau buat macam ni dekat aku?
kenapa tak bagi taw aku yang kau nak test je aku ni?
hah?
pengecut, kenapa perempuan tu yang kena bertindak dulu?
she was the first who approached me, pretend want to kenal-kenalan but actually you alredy know me huh?
hmm,
aku penatla, sakit hati aku bila nampak perempuan tu guna profile picture dia, and cover page is you.
hum.
why you never to console? what is console mean actually ha?
hmm,,
dah, aku penat